traumhaft;

The Rabbit Hearted Girl;

2011-04-30T15:00:00.000-07:00

"I must become, the lion hearted girl.
Ready for a fight."

Life is truley amazing and wonderful. I have been blessed recently with so many great opportunities, career and otherwise. I must give thank where the thanks is due, and for that I must "raise it up".

God will never give you anything that you can't handle.

xxo, Ashton

Image via http://www.fffound.com

Lyrics Florence + The Machine "Raise it Up"

I don't want a home, I'd ruin that...

2010-10-27T22:13:00.000-07:00

A HOME IS A PLACE WHERE MY HABITS HAVE A HABITAT.

Why give it turn?

What did I learn?

xxo, Ashton

image via le smoking blog

lyrics fiona apple "better version of me"

I don't want my pride.

2010-08-11T12:48:00.000-07:00

" Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass, glory in the flower, we will grieve not; rather find strength in what remains behind. "

- William Wordsworth
Image via fffound.

FIND your KUBRICK

2010-07-17T17:25:00.000-07:00

It's a mistake to confuse pity with love.
Stanley Kubrick

xxo, Ashton

Good energy, good choices.

"And the rain beats on my roof"

2010-06-23T09:45:00.000-07:00

"And it does not ask for proof"
"It's not that lovers are unkind
She always said there'd come a time
When one would leave and one stay behind
We both knew people sometimes change
And lovers sometimes rearrange
And nothing's quite as sure as change."

xxo, Ashton
Lyrics "Look Through My Window"
The Mamas and The Papas.
Image via Google.

She hides her true love en su bolsillo.

2010-06-17T13:19:00.001-07:00

Got a halo round her finger around you.

- Ashton
Lady Gaga "Alejandro" lyrics.
Image via fffound.

Bless You...

2010-05-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

And everything that you do.

I'm sorry that I tried to ruin what you and she have.
I'm sorry for hurting you, and betraying your trust.
I'm sorry for still loving you, not for loving you.
I'm sorry you put yourself in this position.

I'm sorry I couldn't change your mind for you.

I hope you are happy, really.
I hope you stay safe.
Thank you for seeing me one last time.
Thank you for reminding me what loves feels like.

Thank you for remembering what we had.

Thank you for serving our country.
I'll pray for you everyday, that I can promise you.

Until next time our paths cross...

May God Bless You Cpl.

"I'm loathing most of your history

Hesitation, but then you siphon me

Your potential, well I'll indulge in that

Violent timing explains the aftermath

And it's too bad

You're so sad

I wish you could have had what I had

And it's so sad, It's too bad

Maybe I can make you feel better

Oh maybe I'm supposed to make you feel better

I want to comfort you"

- No Doubt "Dark Blue" lyrics.

"Their Eyes Were Watching God"

2010-01-22T11:14:00.000-08:00

The day of the gun, and the bloody body, and the courthouse came and commenced to sing a sobbing sigh out of every corner in the room; out of each and every chair and thing. Commenced to sing, commenced to sob to sigh, singing and sobbing. Then Tea Cake came prancing around her where she was and the song of the sigh flew out of the window and lit in the top of the pine trees. Tea Cake, with the sun for a shawl. Of course he wasn’t dead. He could never be dead until she herself had finished feeling and thinking. The kiss of his memory made pictures of love and light against the wall. Here was peace. (20.12)
- Zora Neale Hurston

I know this is late, but nothing effects me like seeing human suffering. The devestation in Haiti has touched me, I feel it takes all of us to help. Do what ever you can, donate whatever you can... Help save a life. Here is the easiest way to help directly, through the Red Cross.

Text "HAITI" to "90999" to donate $10.

Ashton, xxo

More pictures... here.

I'll be your everything...

2009-11-12T19:22:00.001-08:00

And I will try to give you anything back;

But I can not give you my love.

I've got you in my heart, to make this all harder.

I will stay addicted to you.

xxo, Ashton
Lyrics "These Roses" by Gin.

J'veux ton amour, I don't want to be friends.

2009-10-30T14:47:00.001-07:00

Life's fucked up, and on that note...
I love everything about mine.
The good, bad, and all of it's ugly ugly truths...

I hope you are happy.
You must be stronger than me.

xxo, Ashton

Expert Status.

2009-09-23T01:36:00.001-07:00

EVERYTHING IS LOOKING WAY UP IN MY DIRECTION.
FINALLY,

AND THE ONLY DIRECTION I AM LOOKING IS...

FORWARD.

XXO, Ashton

No one can bring this free spirit too a halt, I guarantee you that.

2009-09-15T20:24:00.001-07:00

"All things splendid have been achieved by those who dared believe that something inside them was superior to circumstance."

- Unknown

Image via ffffound.

Fanning my yellow eye...

2009-09-02T06:42:00.001-07:00

Illumination, this is how my heart behaves.

and by the way, it didn't pan out so well.

- Feist
"How My Heart Behaves"

My life is CHAOS

2009-06-10T19:57:00.001-07:00

I absolutely adore it, don't get me wrong. I am still ridiculously optimistic and foolishly confident at times... I love all things unpredictable... but when someone walks into your life, and mine being particularly guarded, and takes you by surprise and gives you those feelings... you know what ones... it scares the shit out of me.

but all the possibilities, the good and the bad... well they excite me.

I can't wait to see how this pans out.

Ashton, xxo.

When Will We Get

2009-03-16T09:24:00.001-07:00

"The time to be..."

"Just Friends"

Amy Winehouse "Just Friends" lyrics.

Image unknown.

xxo, Ashton

Laying It All Off

2009-03-10T15:03:00.001-07:00

It seems my "full-proof" beat the ailing economy idea had backfired big time. I thought I had token a job that would secure me, at least for this year, turns out I was wrong. I am feeling this economic pinch more than ever, and it blows. The man I work for has been laid off from his job as a financial consultant at some big company downtown. So cutting back expenses... what's to go? The apartment in San Diego? Yes. The third car? Yes. The au pair? Unfortunately. I will be ok, it's a bitter sweet parting and it actually may be a blessing in disguise. Now that I have my ducks more in a row, I can get home and tie up my loose ends before setting off on whatever adventures life has waiting for me. The biggest downfall? Leaving sunny California for wet and dreary mid-west living of course.

xxo, Ashton

Image via fffound.

You'll Rescue Me Right?

2009-03-03T19:43:00.001-08:00

"These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defensless, and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends"

- Alanis Morissette
"Precious Illusions"

xxo, Ashton

Image from Le Smoking, I believe.

He Could Be Anyone

2009-03-02T14:43:00.001-08:00

How cute is this little dude?

"Now I can let these dream killers kill my self esteem-or use my arrogance as steam to power my dreams!"

- Kanye West

xxo, Ashton

Be Happy

2009-02-17T19:49:00.001-08:00

"With who YOU are, and always know that you are worth more than what people are going to try to make you believe".

This isn't like anything any of you have seen from me, but yeah...

xxo, Ashton

Retro: Two

2009-02-14T00:15:00.001-08:00

Middle-class Jewish family living in New Jersey sometime during the 1960's, anyone?

Christmas/Hanukah? Thanksgiving? Easter? Bar Mitzvah?

There are many reasons I love this... the hair, those suits, the plastic lamp shade, that ladies whole look, how the dad kind of looks like a sleazy salesman... haha.

xxo, Ashton

"I bet you could never tell..."

2009-02-12T19:51:00.001-08:00

"that I knew you didn't know me that well"

"it's my fault you see, that you never learned that much from me".

"All the signs said 'STOP' but we went on whole hearted, it ended bad but I love what we started".

xxo, Ashton

Fiona Apple Parting Gift lyrics.
Image credit: le love.

Stepping a stone...

2009-02-09T22:43:00.001-08:00

"and i'm all gone - give me the tone and i'm all gone"

"yeah i'm walking by the line, not here but in my mind"

For the first time in a long time I feel like I'm going somewhere. I can't wait to get there, but I know that the journey is always the best part.

xxo, Ashton

Check out Lykke Li performing "I'm Good, I'm Gone" live in a toilet stall, this version is my favorite. Image ffffound.

Girl, it's your call...

2009-02-07T12:07:00.001-08:00

"You wanna fly? You wanna fall?"

"So I shout I wanna get away from you as fast as I can
I tell my feet to move it
I hope they have a plan"

xxo, Ashton

Image ffffound.
Sia Little Black Sandals lyrics.

Retro: One

2009-02-05T22:26:00.001-08:00

This reminds me of Chicago in the early 1980's for some reason. I have no idea who these people are, but from this picture you can imagine a million different stories and scenarios. This lady looks less than thrilled, but the little boy looks really happy - I love his hair.

xxo, Ashtom

Image credit ffffound.

Ohio

2009-02-03T10:55:00.001-08:00

"All Americans come from Ohio originally, if only briefly." — Dawn Powell

The farther I am away from Ohio, and the longer I stay away, the more I appreciate it. I spent most of my life their knowing what was outside of it, and I couldn't wait to be a part of anything outside of it. There is another world to Ohio, forgotten and hidden. There are many decaying houses, barns, churches, cemeteries... all of which are beautiful in their own way and all of which leave a lot to the imagination. There is just so much history there, and there is something indescribable that I find very endearing.

xo, Ashton

Photos taken outside Fremont, Ohio where I grew up.
Image credit here.

Dearest one, I had a dream...

2009-02-02T11:27:00.001-08:00

"I mouthed the words,

The sound came out,

I spoke to you in Japanese"

The Bird And The Bee Love Letter To Japan lyrics.
Image credit here.

xo, Ashton

foxtrot uniform charlie kilo yankee oliver uniform, man.

2009-02-01T23:24:00.001-08:00

"I was wrong, I will cry

I will love you till the day I die"

But I have never felt more relieved that something was over in my entire life. I stopped caring and looking back, even before I knew it. You are still the same pretentious, self-absorbed, immature asshole you were when we were together. Good luck with that.

xxo, Ashton

Sia I Go To Sleep lyrics.

traumhaft;

The Rabbit Hearted Girl;

I don't want a home, I'd ruin that...

I don't want my pride.

FIND your KUBRICK

"And the rain beats on my roof"

She hides her true love en su bolsillo.

Bless You...

"Their Eyes Were Watching God"

I'll be your everything...

I've got you in my heart, to make this all harder.

I will stay addicted to you.

J'veux ton amour, I don't want to be friends.

I hope you are happy. You must be stronger than me.

Expert Status.

FORWARD.

No one can bring this free spirit too a halt, I guarantee you that.

Fanning my yellow eye...

My life is CHAOS

When Will We Get

"The time to be..."

"Just Friends"

Laying It All Off

You'll Rescue Me Right?

"These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defensless, and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends"

He Could Be Anyone

"Now I can let these dream killers kill my self esteem-or use my arrogance as steam to power my dreams!"

Be Happy

"With who YOU are, and always know that you are worth more than what people are going to try to make you believe".

Retro: Two

"I bet you could never tell..."

"that I knew you didn't know me that well"

"it's my fault you see, that you never learned that much from me".

Stepping a stone...

"and i'm all gone - give me the tone and i'm all gone"

"yeah i'm walking by the line, not here but in my mind"

Girl, it's your call...

"You wanna fly? You wanna fall?"

"So I shout I wanna get away from you as fast as I can I tell my feet to move it I hope they have a plan"

Retro: One

Ohio

"All Americans come from Ohio originally, if only briefly." — Dawn Powell

Dearest one, I had a dream...

"I mouthed the words,

The sound came out,

I spoke to you in Japanese"

foxtrot uniform charlie kilo yankee oliver uniform, man.

"I was wrong, I will cry

I will love you till the day I die"

I hope you are happy.
You must be stronger than me.

"So I shout I wanna get away from you as fast as I can
I tell my feet to move it
I hope they have a plan"